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Update/ICanBeMEAN.

Tue Sep 15, 2009, 12:47 AM
So, there's this girl that called my girlfriend a couple times.
They used to have this "thing," so being the jealous person I am, obviously I was pissed.
Then, a few days ago, I actually saw a picture of her and, suddenly, I wasn't so jealous.
Truth be told: She's just unflattering PERIOD.
I went on to rant about how ugly she is and how she looks like a cow and my girlfriend got angry with me.
At first I didn't care, but then my girlfriend told me why she had a "thing" with her. It wasn't because of her looks, but her personality. Apparently, she's a nice person. (Nice person or not, I don't appreciate the phone calls.)
I started to feel a little bad because here I was judging some girl I didn't know as a person and just started to criticize based on her looks. But here's my reason:

I'm insecure.
For those who did not know me, I was the stereotypical "emo" kid in high school.
I was picked on ENDLESSLY in high school because of how I looked.
I didn't think I was attractive.
After high school, however, I started to grow into my looks and appreciate my image more. Unfortunately, this caused me to be a bit of a bitch. Now that I knew I looked good, I started to criticize those who were in the same spot I was a few years ago.
In a way, it's because I still have that little bit of insecurity left in me.
I will truthfully admit that, from time to time, I can be that person who puts others down just to make myself feel better about how I look. I know a lot of other people that do this too, but at least I'm admitting it.
The thing is, though, no matter how much I mentally laugh at and criticize these people, doing so won't me look prettier. If anything, it makes me look more unattractive.

It's something I'm trying to work on.

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Name: Jeunessa.
Age: 18
"I'm the girl you look at, but never really see."

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  • Current Residence: Vancouver
  • Interests: MY FIANCE, Writing, Photography, Reading, Insanely Long Walks, Modeling
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You have been featured here [link] :peace:

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:iconfatal-papercut:
Aww, that's cute.
Thank you. =)

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My lesbian softball motto: "I hit balls, but I don't fuck 'em"
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I really love how you've portrayed love amongst women.
Great job!

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My lesbian softball motto: "I hit balls, but I don't fuck 'em"
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:hug:

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Proud to be :flagcanada:, eh
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=D

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My lesbian softball motto: "I hit balls, but I don't fuck 'em"
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featured here.[link]

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Fotografia este arta de a fura timpului o firimitura de clipa.
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Your gallery is :heart: :heart:

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